New Day

Well, it's a new day, and a new start.  So far, so good.  The rest of the weekend went pretty well.  Although, to keep things honest here, I sucked when I was at Sarah's.  I ate 2 Valentine snack cakes, and 3 pieces of the boy's chocolate crispy valentine candy.  And way too much, not 100% fruit juice.  Bad, bad, bad!!.  But Sunday was better.

For breakfast today: 3/4 c. 1% cottage cheese and a fruit smoothie made with skim milk.  Maybe I'll start taking pics of my meals, I've noticed while blog hopping that this is a popular thing to do.  Hmmm.. we'll see.

Today

So far so good, today. I got up at 8:15a, unloaded/loaded the dishwasher and made myself breakfast. And started a load of laundry.  The sun is shining again today.  Praise to my Lord for never giving up on me, you gave me one more day of sunshine to enjoy (finally got a clue), before the temperature drop and rain coming tomorrow.

2 scrambled eggs with 3 slices of Canadian bacon and a sprinkle of cheese, and Tbsp of ketchup (i know not low in sugar). Oh and OJ. Total so far is: 346 cal. and 32.1 g. protein (Half way to my daily goal which is 63) and 20.1 g fat.  The calories are  and fat are a little high. I'm thinking maybe i'll try 1 whole egg and then an egg white.  I ate all of it and it was too much.  Remember to slow down....
I logged everything in my FIT DAY account.

I still need to take my pills and vitamin.  I'm off to Sarah and Jim's to play "Jonesie" aka "Indiana Jones" on X-Box with the Wyatt monster.  Can't wait !

Passing Time

I can't believe how much time has passed since surgery day, nearly a month. Actually a month tomorrow! Since surgery, I've been in a funk. Some days are good and positive and I am productive, but more often than not, they are filled with a whole lot of nothing. Keep in mind, the first two weeks I could not drive and then I couldn't afford to drive (literally). It was pretty much last Thursday that I was finally able to get out by myself.

Sarah came and visited once or twice and I went over to her house once or twice, seriously though all the days are blurring together. My 2-week follow-up ended up being a 3-week one and it was not a happy one for me. I only lost 5 lbs in 3-weeks!! I swear it felt like more and I'm guessing that before I started pureed food at week 2 I had lost more and then started gaining. Not a happy or encouraging sign. Of course, I also have not been walking, again it was cold and the snow and.... how many more excuses do you want cause i can give them. But that is all they are, excuses.

The past 2 days have been beautiful and I only stepped outside to get the mail. Of course, (excuse coming) I have felt like crap since Tuesday night. Still feeling pretty yucky, but my excuses need to stop! I get to go back to work on March 2, thank you Jesus!. I have no routine, I'm not getting enough protein, or H2O or walking and I'm not taking my vitamins. Gee, is there anything I'm doing right? In fairness, most of the time I would say 70% I don't feel hunger. But, I still need to eat something even if it's just a couple tablespoons of food.

I'm frustrated, a little depressed, angry at myself for doing the same things, making the same mistakes and never changing. What I do know is, tomorrow is another day and I can do different and better tomorrow.

Anyway, I think I'm babbling now, so I will stop.